Home is Where the Heart Is
I am back in Miami from Washington DC for family reasons. I miss DC so much.
I hate Miami! I can't stand this third world ghetto dump and the nasty ignorant uneducated losers that live in this, the shit-pit of the United States.
I am counting the days until the new house is finished. I can't live here...for no one!
NCTI Matrixx Profile
Some words that describe me are: complex, curious, abstract, exacting, independent, ingenious, intellectual, research oriented, inventive, logical, scientific, cool, calm, collected, theoretical and analytical.
I am non-conforming by nature. I think in abstract terms and I am always curious. I take time to analyze things. I ponder and struggle over decisions to be certain I don't make a mistake. I am inventive and like to explore new ways to do things.
I am independent and because of this people often think that I am impersonal. The truth is that I am more comfortable with things than people.
I do not like to talk about feelings. I strive to keep my head in charge of my heart. When my emotions begin to control me, I become uneasy. Relationships are important, but once they are established and feelings are expressed, it is time to move on to the more important business of life.
I love to work as long as I am constantly challenged. I'm often referred to as a workaholic. When I have developed a concept or an idea into a working model, I prefer to move on to new challenges and leave the maintenance duties to someone else.
I question authority and have to respect someone before I value their advice.
I am impatient with routines.
I can get hooked on acquiring and storing knowledge. When I look at problems I don't see black and white answers, only endless possibilities.
Before you criticize someone, you should walk a mile in their shoes. That way, when you criticize them, you're a mile way and you have their shoes.
MY GOOD
Unquestionably honest. I learn well from my mistakes and have been successful in avoiding repeat performances. I am incredibly attentive and receptive to everyone's needs. Self sufficient and incredibly resourceful; I manage through the densest situations with flying colors. Also, capable of molding the utmost imbecile into a crowning jewel. I stand on my own two feet; which just so happen to be very well grounded.
MY BAD
I'm stubborn, known to be contradictory, impatient, candid, and complex. I give no one a second chance. Reason: I will never betray you; therefore, you have no right to betray me! In my camp, trust and respect are earned not given.
MY LIKES
Keeping life simple (still working on that)! I cannot stand the complexities that life creates for us. Getting away from it all. Although I like stability and the comforts of my domain, I live for stretching my wings and taking flight.
WHAT WORKS FOR ME
Integrity, Honesty, Passion, and Simplicity.
It doesn't matter to me what you do for a living - I want to know what you ache for, and if you dare to dream of meeting your heart's longing.
It doesn't interest me how old you are - I want to know if you risk looking like a fool for love, for your dreams, for the adventure of being alive.
It doesn't interest me what planets are squaring your moon - I want to know if you have touched the center of your own sorrow. If you have been opened by life's betrayals, or have become shriveled or closed from fear of further pain or bitter.
I want to know if you can sit with your own pain without moving to hide it,fade it, or fix it.
I want to know if you can be with your own joy - if you can dance wildness, and let the ecstasy fill you to the tips of your fingers and toes without cautioning yourself to be careful, to be realistic or to remember the limitations of being human.
I want to know if you can "disappoint" another to be true to yourself, if you can bear "the accusation" of betrayal and not betray your own soul, if you can be "faithful" and therefore trustworthy.
I want to know if you can see beauty, even when it's not pretty everyday and if you can source from your own life... Beauty's Presence.
I want to know if you can live with your failure and still stand on the edge of the lake and shout to the silver of the full moon, "YES!"
It doesn't interest me to know where you live or how much money you have.. I want to know if you can get up after a night of grief and despair, weary and bruised to the bone, and do what needs to be done for your family.
It doesn't interest me who you know or how you came to be here - I want to know if you will stand in the center of the fire with me and not shrink back.
It doesn't interest me where, or what, or with whom you have studied - I want to know what sustains you from the inside when all else falls away, if you can be alone with yourself, and if you truly like the company you keep in the empty moments.
